Today

Yay today I found an evidence , you're still with her . Holding her pictures , smiling on it , reminding of those memories . Yay , exactly 2 years you mentioned . IT'S HER !! No one refuse to say so .

You made me down just because I felt . My appearance is useless . You made my life down to the earth . I am regreting to ever owned you . It's my biggest mistake .

Yay , I moved forward to letting you know I am better than be with you . I deserve a better than you !

Move on . Keep going on ~ be happy for the sake of tomorrow ~

God bless ~ =))

The end

That's the end that I could say . Back to the place we ever been . How our date been . I hope today I go with happily and end it up happily .

It true to back the end place we ever been then end there too .

I bless you with hapiness <3 lovess ~

Scary

Scary sia ~ as in sometimes I do find that I wanted to help whatever I can but it depends with my ability . What I can I will but I failed to do so today as in comforting a real patient . I'm out of advice and I suddenly felt blank :)) what can I do to improve my patient ?

The time you choose to go it's also a very good choice cause u knew your heart are still there . earlier you let go and I also earlier let go you . You've made a very good choice anywhere .

Sorry I did not hold you tight . Everytime I just felt disappointed cause you can't made your word but I do made my words :))

I am so sorry ~

Be with me Lord . Thanks !

Gone completely

A song remind me of my stupidness . Hahaa' a puppy love wasting my time . Think back felt funny sia . Hahaa'

Do not think too much ~ let it be . Open up a big big eyes to see what's wrong . Hahaa'

To be with you , Lord =)

How much

How much could you afford to give me ? Non of the answer correct cause you can't afford what I want .

Yupp as you said do not look back once the chain is separate into two cause it ain't that strong anymore .

But you never try never know cause different people will have different way of life .

Anyway , I'm fine with it . You played . So am I . =))

Bloody stress

So , how's life getting on ? I've no words to describe except wanted to describe it as same words with the title ; b l o o d y s t r e s s ! ^o^

I've got loads of things to talk and express out but I don't really know who are comfortable for me to express . Felt like i'm under-control by someone . It's jutst so hard to feel and take !

Most probably ; 98 % , I will gone crazy because of this and that matter . Sometimes my mind just went black and could not think much . Stuck half way right before the middle ~

I can stand with all this until when ? Yupp , I'm living with God who Do protect me but sometimes God get so busy and I have to handle it by myself .

I just wish there is someone who can hold me . Take good care of me . Giving a comfortable companion to me . I badly need a shoulder to lean on ~

God bless me with all the faith . Moving on . No matter what be humble . Keep practising . Be positive !! =}

Leaving

Yupiee 3 weeks of vacation just end right today again . How time flies that we never realize . Yupiie . I enjoyed myself Very much !

Specially thanks to my family who accompany me very much . Who gave , fulfill my dreams and request . Though I'm away I do always remember if you guys ! Do not forget you half another at different country . May not worry me !

I got no idea until I landed myself at a country same as yours . I start to have the feeling of seeing you meeting you . So , I do not put loads of hope . If we do meet that's our fate . If we do not I will move on once again . So , the answer told me . Do not search for him anymore . It's not mine ! Yet , I've to move on and on ! If we meet I might be happy . We should continue our journey as a friend . But we do not . Well , I'm sorry . I have to be cruel as I do not want to hurt myself again and again .

Loads of question needed to ask you ! After I've gone such few months . Do you miss me or think of our moment like how I used to be ? Are you even happy after go ? Slowly you learnt and know something better . I miss you ! Are your life better ? Do you smoke a lot too ? You ever said after we go separate we do still a friend . I am waiting you to say even a hi or hello to me .

Yup I could not hope for so much but I just want you to remember of me :) you ever said you will make my life happy . You ever said you do not know how to make me happy but you did know how to protect me . I did not ask for so much . I though you are ready to let go her and with me . But you are not ! Why ? Am I too much ?

Happy moment always pass damn fast . Well this is life . Slowly you will understand . Caring . Wish everything will going smoothly again !

Thanks ! Really a big thanks ! I did not know how to give back but my tears worth to mean it . I though I am stronger but hope just a disappointment . Do not hope but shun qi zhi ran !

Loves you all ! In your name Lord , I pray , offering my both hand , I love you , thank you so much !

Ooh prince faster come out of my life . I need you ! Hahas ^0^

Morning

Hello :D worries encounter me . Why ? Wish everything smoothly ^o* !

I don't understand why it's been months yet i still compare between me & her . I wish one day I could hear about what's your heart think of ; before & after . I need the answer to move on . As if not
, I'm still behind the shadow following the footstep of both of you . It's just so hard and suffering man !

Your day around the corner . What should I do for you intend for you to ask me a chance again ? I did not want your fully attention but I just want you to know we need each other badly * you might not know but I believe ~

Alone ! Omgg it's just so alone . What
Should I do ?

Praise the Lord being with me always . Thanks so much ; LOVES ! :))