Why ?

Why my life getting miserable until today ? Why ? Why cant he make something to cheer up my heart . Just damn so down !

New days

Woooooo ~ First day I havent get to miss you anymore . But waking up by suffering from lungs pain . Why ? maybe because you're out of my heart where another new one replace it . Guess it sounds nice right ?

I seriously miss him a lot and i do ~!

Hell me not YOU

Ya , for the past 5 days , I turned to be bad as how bad you leave me . Just into memories how you changed my life for the 5 days .

I knew you wanted to back , but , why dont you ask for the chance , why need me to voice up and ask you to come back .

Xie xie ni de ai ! I love you very much cause I knew we meant to be as how I smell your smell even though you're sweating .

Wish , share it with you for once again .

Love is blind

It's 5th day since we had our last conversation and continuosly messaging . How much I miss you my dearest babee . Your smile , your voice , your smell , your laugh , your face , your attitude , everything of yours cant be describe in words .

And now , you put me all alone in an unknown country while you're going back to our own country where we start to know each other . How we met each other , how I leave you and you promise me will follow my footsteps I left . Yet , you made it to me , we've been together through the days will all alone and independently for a moment .

Memories you left it away yet you push everything on me . For once , I wanted to tell you , you will feel how I felt for this past 5 days . How suffer am I .

You make my courage to go on alone totally down to the earth . Can I survive all alone for the next 9 years ? You make a fool on me . You look so perfect but it doesnt consist of anything .

Love really make us blind . You keep my faith to go on when we're together . You gave me your name , I gave you my name . How faithful you towards me . But where does that all go to ? No one can give me any answer neither you ! You got me easily , why you put me easily too ?

I remembered how tight you hold me , hug me , kiss me for the last time . Never knew it's the last chance you gave to me to be with you . How cruel the world for us . And now , I cant felt it all again but the pictures of every steps we take still indeed clear on my mind cause you're better than others .

Feelings comes and goes too fast . I seek for forgiveness . Why dont you answer me , we're meant to be ? My world is falling down in the darkness . Where's all those promises you made to me ? It's empty .

There's so much more I never seen before . I couldnt find a way and change everything . I miss you deeply . You make me crazier and crazier . It's hard to forget the moment we spend together .

Maybe we took too much for granted to be together . My world is falling a part . Well , just let it flow . So much more I have to take again . I trying to get updated .

When you're here with me , you take away my pain and I felt relief but now , I take it all myself . Can I do so ? I'm overboard and I need your love . Pull me up . I cant swim in my own . It's too much . Feels like I'm drowning withour your love .

Lord , I pray with my both hands , sharing my sins with you , let me back to me for once , we had our joy together and spend my life here with me . I wish , it can be fulfill and now , I need happier life than before and not to take all this obstacle again .

Thanks for everything ! Loads of love from me to all of you . Wait me back and I will :D

Babee

Hahaa` i miss you very much . Hahaa`

9.05.2010

How much pain I have to bear to be with you . How much tears have to drop because of you . How much worth you are in my life . Why happy time ended so fast . Why it will not remain as what we want .

Boy , I miss you very much . Every flash back we have , it still remain in me . I love you , how much I deserve . I need you badly*

Thanks for so much . Still not enough for me . I need more from you . LOVES .

Thanks

7.05.2010 Thanks for coming back to me . Thanks for telling me I'm not others in you . I am yours . Everything fine . Things happen and it should be some reason behind . All I wanted to say is THANKS babee . I love you so muchh ! !((=

4.05.2010

5.05.2010 will be a month ago since I came here . A new and unknown country for me . So much things I have to learnt and know . I came here with all alone bringing myself here and there . My heart full of feeling hard . So much feeling I kept and bear for it . I never complaint so much and put a wide smile to everyone telling everyone I am fine here .

Friends . . It's really hard when it comes to independent . Words are easy to say but not easy to be done . I proven to me .

One thing I never regret and I have a very happy moment with my love one . We got nice time and we can accompanied each other whenever we need . We're so near . Thanks all to him .

Life . . No matter what , have a nice sleep and tomorrow's will be a nice day . Life goes on . Be tough and strong ! ! Good luck good luck ~ :D

Seriously , I miss everyone in Malaysia . I miss EVERYTHING . I try to get used of things here . I hope I can .

Byeee ~ See you next time :))

Pray for me in YOUR name , LORD .