Tired

Arggghhh . Feeling so tired right now . Feeling unwell kills me again . Headache ! Sien ! Why I have to suffer this again . I guess it's time for me to stop playing and go for serious stuff . A lot more stuff for me to be done and prepare . Why I dont feel to do it . Tired . Tired . I am so so so . Who can accompany me to go on . What had happened . Am I wrong in making decision again . I wish not . How it start naturally I wanted it to end naturally . I dont wish to make last choice . Fine , I stick with my own plan and go on for it . Too tired to bare with this kind of sucks feeling . I am a human . Up to you . Up to you . I dont care anymore . I am visible . I am no one . Downn downn downn to the EARTH .

Final

Everything finalist . A sign of relief . *happy* Things gonna change . Change into better or worst I'm not sure . Just pray for everything smoothly . Just me & you .

陈家伟&林婉仙

Come again

Sometimes I just feel weird . Why have to be like , LIFE UNFAIR . Why it can't fully belongs to you . Why you must share someone with another . So damn fooling ehh sometimes think back . Funny somemore . Sometimes just dont get why . But everday and night full of question marks . It can never be solve . Well , just LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST . Enjoy what you do . Be brave to face anything . This make my hope towards you getting lesser and lesser cause there's someone more . It's not a jealousy but the true heart between us infact sharing is CARING .

Why

Another of wondering why . Why he has to do so on me . Why he has . No idea . Arrrrrrggghhhh . . . . . . . . . . . . . So damn shit . We're friend . Can't we be ? Tell me if you face anything . Shittt .

The feeling is so tired . Crying in loneliness . No one .

Fooling

What's going on ? Why everything not smoothly ? Are the world fooling me ? I knew , I'll not get any answer for my question . I'll bare my own feeling again . For once , how my single life start to be . I miss you . I really do .

7 days . It's so much . But I can't stand without you . Your smell , your love , your laugh , your voice , your miss . I miss everything of you . Be backk . . SORRY for my mistake .

I've no idea right now . I've no idea how to write or even say out my feeling . It's ROJAK . Hate my life . Tired of it .

Well , LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST . Smile . Weeeeeeeeeee ~ I'll put on a smile no matter when or what but inner , I don't know .

Things happen . Let it . Live for tomorrow . There's more hope and things to wait for us . GO GO GO ~ I can go for it . Hahahahahaa` Laugh to the highest potential .

Loads of luv from me . PRAY .

Maybe

We're so close yet so far from each other . I'll wait . Can't we just start all over again . Give me one more chance . So , I'll wait for you . Cause I dont know what else I can do . It take the rest of my life .

Wish everything will be fine cause I ain't perfect in this world . Thanks . HPOE .

...

Because you leave me badly . . I wish we will leave together . Not what we plan to leave . But what God want us to be .

All I can say FEAR . PHOBIA . See those picture . I feel to do it on myself . Cause it's hurt . I wanted to feel it together with them . My heart are too soft . I knew . But . .

But with your exist , I feel so much better . Your hug warm me a lot . Making my mind clear of those phobia by killing myself . Thanks for becoming a perfect guy for me . I lub euuu ~

My mind full with question mark . So sick of thinking . I feel fainting . But , I'll be strong . I knew you need my day . GO GO GO . WO KE YI .

Pray .

My love

Babee , my love . How much I miss you . Hope you can feel it there . When we gonna meet each other again ? Miss you like there's no tomorrow . Remind me of everysecond we used to be together . It's just so sweet . Yet we're so close . I MISS YOU .

10 days babee . Time flies . Hope our love stand strong now and always do !

Trust

Trust . What does it really mean . Who the one we trust to .

No , there's no any answer in this world . No one you can trust even the person near to you . Living in the same roof . Everything is changing so fast . Why . Where's your trust-ness towards me . Find it out . And tell me what's going on .

I hope I can get the trust-ness from you . Everything will be fine . Ask me what you want to know . Don't back step me . How hurt when you know it . No trust-ness how we're going to live in a same roof . I hate . I love . Not what I feel . I felt NOTHING at all .

LAUGH . All I could do . Thanks for accompany-ing me . I laugh for no reason . Because I rather to be crazy than to be normal . I like laughing . It make me think nothing . The feeling is just too nice . Too perfect ! !

Past memories came through me again . How am I again . Past memories used to be my inspiration to go on . Maybe it called experience . I am tired . I am hungry . Who trust my words . Loads of word to drop down but I cant . Tired woiii ! !

I felt I'm wrong going into this . I felt I'm extra over here . I feel to give back what you want . What you hope for all this while . Sing loud out of lung ! ! How you miss everysecond of yours. Zhen xing .

Luvv . Pray .

Respect

RESPECT . No matter young to old , old to young . We must respect each other . So that we'll live in 1 Malaysia . Right ? Why . Someother are so sensitive about religion . Cause each other doesn't respect on it .

I feel it by myself now . I'm sorry , sincerely , LORD , I'm sorry HE said the wrong word towards you . I feel the SINS . I'm really sorry . I can't do more or say more . But SORRY from me . I hope you'll accept for it .

Please . We come from different . Respect me please if you wish me . Hope you understand .

Loads of luv from me .

Friendship ?

Definition of friendship : True friendship is perhaps the only relation that survives the trials and tribulations of time and remains unconditional . A unique blend of affection , loyalty , love , respect , trust , and loads of fun is perhaps what describes the true meaning of friendship . Similar interests , mutual respect and strong attachment with each other are what friends share between each other . These are just the general traits of a friendship . To experience what is friendship , one must have true friends , who are indeed rare treasure .

Friendship is a feeling of comfort and emotional safety with a person . It is when you do not have to weigh your thoughts and measure words , before keeping it forth before your friend . It is when someone knows you better than yourself and assures to be your side in every emotional crisis . It is when you can sleep fighting and get another morning with a better understanding . Friendship is much beyond roaming together and sharing good moments , it is when someone comes to rescue you from the worst phase of life . Friendship is ETERNAL .

But why . Why I can't even see my friendship around . They're playing hide and seek with me either . Ever since we step into a same class , from childhood until teenage . Do you still remember me . The one by your side . Giving a protect to you . A wide smile of mine .

I miss friendship recently . Maybe because we're stepping out of the door , we go for different direction . This make us like a stranger never meet each other in life before . Well , I never blame anyone for that cause me myself do so .

True friendship will stay and remain . Yay , I saw my true friendship . The one who stay with me neither schoolmates nor classmates again . Who always being by my side with fun and jokes . Others , separate since we got the last exam of life .

This is life . We meet variety of people . We should bare our feeling . No matter what happen in time , we should appreciate . Past really a past . We can never get back . It remain as memories and smile for it when we think back . It's really sweet as countless pack of sugar .

I hope we will remain as friend . Call my name when saw me . Although I've change a lot . Seek for me , click through my name , when you need help . I am here ready for everyone . Comfort , advice and happiness . I may not be the best but I'll try my best for all you .

Loads of luv from me . Lord , I pray sincerely .

Studyy

What I gonna choose for myself ? A shorter way . A longer way . An easy way . A hard way . No one can tell me . Not a single person even MYSELF . How do you expect me myself to choose for it . In the end blaming me for my wrong .

A local , offering Pharmacy courses . Need 6 years to complete . An overseas , offering Health Sciences courses . Need 9 years to complete . Which better .

What I want . Have been asking myself for many .

Dilemma . Future unpredictable .

I don't know

Urrhhh . . How can I describe about my feeling right now into words ? There're too much . Too much to drop down into words . No single word can describe all about my feeling .

SCARE . I'm very very very . I admit . By looking back the past , the moment shared with another half , it's all left as memories . But I'm still scare it will turn back . Not me , but another half of mine . I , never look back , I'll go on with my life . LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST . Do another half think so ? Does another half know that ? I , I don't know . TOTALLY ! !

Thought found out the one who share life with you , it's nice , ABSOLUTELY , but , the feeling so weird is so strong . Stronger than an acid pour into human skin . Heartbreaker ! !

FUTURE . What can I say more ? I pray , everysecond , everything going alright so that we won't get far away from each other and miss like hell . Our love never die but feeling may die as fast as a rocket to the space . WORRIED came over and tell me . Fine , I'll take the courage to go on .

Who . Who can I talk to . Who the one I trust and tell everything about me and another half . Who's ear are ready for me . Who's shoulder for me to lean . Who's tears drop with me .

WHAT . What I really want from the world . What do I aspect from my dream . What school am I continue to . What am I going to be . What charity work am I giving to the society .

Loads of question mark on me . No one can give me perfect answer cause UNPERFECT ME . Wonder life after this . Smoothly or hardly . It's all depend on my both hand and both brain to function .

Life full of obstacles . We need to be strong . Never put so much hope . Hope ruined sometimes ONLY .

I give all I can . I pray , LORD , everything smoothly . Loads of luv from ME =))

24.03.2010

Thanks for everything babee . So touched that you're always be punctual . I used to wait people always . Hahaa` Thanks for giving a great morning to me . I never hope for much , I just hope I won't get hurt , I'm in care and I'm be loved . That's all enough . I'm sorry . I could not be perfect for you . I am always who am I . All I can do is to love you back as how you love me .

Distance may make us feel our love will be lesser but I believe , and you agree that DISTANCE CAN NEVER SEPERATE us . I'm happy when you say it's okay . I hope you mark your word well . I hope you'll know which is correct and which is wrong . It's too much . I may not accept for now but I'll used to it . I'm trying , I'm scare for everything . I'm really really sorry =X

Me & You

22.03.2010

Officially he made it . But I'm still scare . Cause we gonna leave each other soon . Very very very soon . Long distance relationship ? Can it go smoothly ? I don't want . Absolutely NOOOO . Please , I beg !

LORD , bless our relationship well . Loads of love from me . Thanks for everythingg .

Not readyy

Thanks babee , thanks for giving a chance that make me look great in life once more . Thanks for the first time holding my hand gently . Thanks for your trust-ness . Thanks for your patient . Thanks for everything babee ! No words can describe about it . I'm sorry if I hurt you , I'm really not ready to go for it .

I'll do my best for giving happiness to you .

Yet , I still feel I'm being left out . I dont know why . I still miss my friend .

Babee , I need you . Lovess ~

Wonder whyy .

20.03.2010` My relationship status changed from single to in a relationship . I never think it will happen so fast but it's my dream but until a guy that we know each other for a long time asked me to accept the request . He even asked for permission to do something on my facebook but I never think that he will do that . I never blame him for that . He's so much sincere . Seriously , I havent really accept that guy . I asked him to give me sometimes but he make a fast move . That's all I can say why my status changed so sudden . Although I've been wanted to be in love so much , dreaming to have a guy by my side , but now , a serious guy came , I just realise I'm not really ready at all . Single for 2 years . Have been playing and flirting around for 2 years suddenly came a serious relationship how can I change so fast ?

I miss my best buddy so much ! He's a friend of mine , we know each other cause we're from the same hometown . How can he changed so sudden also right after knowing that he had done his job , means I am in a relatipnship . Why ? He's so much important for me . We've been so sweet but he changed . Joke , fun , flirt and stupidness . So much precious for me . I treat him like no one else . Until the last minute of yesterday he told me everything why he feel so . Cant blame me for that cause he never tell me so . I really miss you babee .

Loads of love from me . Sincerely !

18.03.2010`

I'm totally disappointed and feel I've no more hope to go on . When asked why are you so determine to go for that . I answer , I fall in love with it . How can I let go easily ? When asked not to think so much . I'm sorry , cause this is what every human do feel . I try to let go , not to think the future what will happen . As the things come to me , I'll accept it and life still goes on no matter what choice .

I wish God will lead my way . Luvss from me .

11.03.2010

11.03.2010 , a history in my life . SPM 2009 result is coming out and dream will be decided .. No matter what path I choose , I'll go for it and giving my best . Seriously , I am quite disappointed with my result but since I've gave my very best , gave what I've learnt , I'm very statisfy with it . Hard work paid off and that's my ability .

Thanks GOD a lot first thing came through my mind after I receive my result slip . Thanks for answering my prayer . I knew I'm not as perfect as others but I did my best and I leave it on GOD'S hand . Whatever HE gave , I'll accept and keep moving on .

Secondly , I walk to my mum , gave her my slip . And I admit , I felt crying , tears almost coming out but I only manage to smile with my mum and she told me It's okay . Sharing a successful joy with family it's really a happiness . Then my mum called my dad and sis . Bro did congrate me when he came back from school . I keep on asking my mum wheather Did I done well ? Did my result statisfy ? Hahaa` I scare to disappoint my family who gave high hopes on me . Yet , they very proud of me . Thanks a lot ! ! Words can't describe how much love me towards my family .

Uncle , aunty and grandma did call my parents for asking my result . Silently , I told them I'm sorry , I'm not as clever as others , sorry for not making it perfect score . However , thanks for the support and put hopes on me . I'll be a better one ! Believe my words , I'll prove .

Lonely Day

It's another lonely day staying at home . I'm so bored with nothing to do . My mind went blank . I don't know what should I do . Feeling of worrying .

I pray .

Prom Night 2009`

I just realised that March is coming where it's been a year since we went for INTI PROM NIGHT 2009 themed Prince & Princess . We , included , Me , Sis , Bro and Raymond . Where this year themed Vintage & Retro at The Banquet we will not be joining . How time flies .

Maybee

In a few days more , another history will be record in my diary . I pray hardly , everything going smoothly . If really , everything gonna change into a new one .

I , don't want the old history , left it as memory , lets begin with new history of life .

Am , ready for everything .

Lord , I offer my hand and pray . Be my side now and forever LOVESS ~

Philosophy of Love

Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.
Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?
If love isn't a game, why are there so many players?
Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.
You can only go as far as you push!
Actions speak louder than words.
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else.
Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.
Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.
A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have.
Some people make the world special by just being in it.
Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.
When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.
True friendship never ends.
Friends are forever.
Good friends are like stars....you don't always see them, but you know they are always there.
Don't frown, you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end. Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart.
If u love something...let it go.
If it comes back to you its yours....
If it doesn't then it never was.
A kiss is just a kiss until u find the one you love. A hug is just a hug>until its from the one your thinking of. A dream is just a dream until u make it come true. LOVE is just a word until it is proven to you.

I don't know

Why days full of worries ? =((

I don't know

I don't know should I keep or reveal things that are happening . I admit I keep everything for myself . I think for the solution myself . Sometimes I just ignore the things and act as nothing happen .

But , as a human , I do have my patient level . Say true , I don't know who to tell . Before this , I read a book , saying that don't scare of your secret will know by others , but still , I can't accept the truth . I've low self-esteem .

What should I do to improve myself guys ? Haihh ! ! That's why I used to read psychology or philosophy books around me . It give me inspiration ! Loads and loads ! ! I love it very much .

Sometimes I do feel myself are going crazy to keep and think all those problem . I am too humble for everything cause am not perfect as others . I am just a small character in others eyes . I just be myself . I need more laughter . Can't deny it ! Haihh ! !

What should I do ? I scare to hurt both party . Tell me seriously .

In my name , I pray , GOD , be my side always and always ! Power and strength . .

I don't know

I don't know again Am I wrong for telling everything ? I just dont feel to be selfish in a knowledge I wish I can share with everyone and enjoy it together I wish I am not doing the wrong decision again I wish you will treat me nicely Regret will always be my starting .